Ghost of Esmeralda

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  Webspace for my essays

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  due to another price hike at homestead i won't be renewing my webspace this year.

  it will expire at the beginning of july.. if anyone has webspace where they wouldn't mind hosting some of my essays, please e mail me at [email protected] and let me know.. otherwise, check them out while you can cause they'll be gone soon.. hugs.

  essie.

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  Another Df'ing/suicide...in memory of a dear friend...

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  things have calmed down again with my mother to the point where i found myself once again in her kitchen last night.

  drinking too many cups of coffee as i always do at her house, i imagine if i were a smoker i'd have been lighting one cigarette after another instead.

  it had been a pleasant enough evening, i sat there with my crocheting in my lap, something i always take with me to my mother's house so that if i get nervous or stressed out, my hands, and my mind, have something to do and somewhere to go.

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  anyone else find that...

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  ...birthdays are as depressing as all get out?.

  this is only my fifth year even acknowledging them in any way...but i still find them horribly depressing.

  i got cards from some of my friends and stuff from my husband and daughter and my husband's family, which is wonderful...but only one of my ex-jw friends remembered...(thanks, mulan...) i wish that i didn't know what my birthday was.

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  JW Family...UPDATE! Please advise!

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  my ex husband just told me that he will continue to facilitate visitation between my child and my jw family who is shunning me (see my other thread "i didn't think they could find another way to hurt me but...") he says i'm the one with the problem and that i should be "ashamed of myself".

  it's not like i thought he'd cooperate, but for him to stand there and tell me that he will allow my sister full access to my child and there's not a damn thing i can do (and probably, legally, that's right) makes my blood boil.

  makes me just want to swallow every fricking pill in the house.

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  I didn't think my JW family could find another way to hurt me but...

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  but i was so wrong!

  my daughter just got home.

  you all know i dressed her up, painted her nails, curled her hair, and sent her off to my favorite cousin's wedding.

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  Today's the Day :(

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  "i can't wait for night to fall.

  i can't wait for day to fade.

  i can't wait for the dark to extinquish the sun, .

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  My essays are back up on the web

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  thank you very much to angharad for posting a link to my site already, sorry to repeat the info in another post, begging your forgiveness :).

  i just didn't know if people would realize that it was my site since i didn't put my username in the title.... www.ghostwriter.homestead.com.

  this is a collection of essays i've written in the past 3 years on my experiences leaving/since leaving the borg, with more to be added as soon as i can find the time...hope they can help some of the 'newly-outs'.. thanks again everyone for your support.

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  Dream or nightmare about the KH...you decide!

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  if this doesn't speak volumes about my opinion of the morals of the majority of elders in the org.

  today...and the level of hypocrisy, then i don't know what would!.

  i dreamed that i was in the kingdom hall.

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  Haunted

  by Ghost of Esmeralda in

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  haunted still, after all this time.

  most of the time, i am able to separate who i am today from who i was five years ago.

  soon, it'll be the five year anniversary of my disfellowshipping.

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